Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Thoughts

I feel like I am in such a panic to get everything ready for Dylon's surgery, we still have 3 months to make plans. I did some googleing today and found some places to stay around TCMC but just couldn't make myself make reservations. I will eventually make myself do it, just not today. It seems like everytime I try to get things in order, my mind starts drifting and thinking of us actually being there, and just the thought of my little man having to go through such a painful surgery just eats at me all day. In a way I wish that we would've caught this sooner, why didn't I notice the coughing earlier, I almost feel like I failed him. Even the surgeon said had his heart condition been found at birth this surgery would not be as complicated. Even though I know I should just be thankful that his irregular heart beat was even heard, and that his heart is mendable, but sometimes my mind gets to thinking negative.
However I do believe that God has a huge plan for Dylon's life and that oneday we can look back on this and be able to testify about how powerful our God's love is.

4 comments:

Bill and Mary said...

Hi! Thanks for posting on Drew's page. I will be praying for your family and for Dylon especially.

Dave and Mandi said...

I know..it's unbearable to even think about it. I want to plan some fun stuff to do with the boys soon!! Love you!

Wendy and Michael said...

Shelli,
I know what you are going through and even though it doesn’t seem like it, it is normal to be feeling the way you are. I remember when Brady had to go to Birmingham for his hernia surgery. I was a complete mess!!! He was 3 months old and so little. I felt so guilty because they were 10 weeks early and that is probably why he had the hernia. Now that I look back on those memories, I’m not for sure how I was able to allow them to take my little boy back to surgery, but as a Mom and a Believer, you find the strength & faith to get through this stepping stone. You will get through this! My thoughts & prayers are with you & your family. Please keep in touch.

Wendy Smith

Cathy said...

I live in Houston. Please let me know of anything at all I can do to help while you are here. Have you checked in to the Ronald McDonald house to see if you can stay there? I am very familiar with the Medical Center area. I would be happy to help you coordinate and even pick you up from the airport. (Unless my daughter is in the hospital having her first baby. Due June 21st.)Please contact me as I don't want you in Houston without a friend.
:-)
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